When isit ever going to stop?

And, we seems to quarrel and quarrel non-stop. When is it going to stop?? It's like what im thinking is all truth, it's just like a broken mirror, once its broken the crack is forever there. No matter how hard you try to remove that crack, the crack will never be gone. And that crack is accumulated by every conflicts. Once, the conflicts happen again, the crack start to appears more and more visibly to your eye.

Hate this, I just hope we can continue on peacefully for at least this month till he goes in army. At least we enjoyed to the max, and yes, after that, it's time to work on our life, the life we want to get.

Sometimes i think i really think so far ahead, that I've not enough enjoy enough..

I thought its gone forever..but no

I thought his gone, gone forever. I'm gonna be alone. I told myself to be strong, to be someone with determination and courage. To let it easy, let it go. Be happy, for once, forever.

But no! He's back! Of course I'm elated. But not that so, he don't seem apologetic, he looks as if he's not in wrong at all. Why?? I let it go, look forward. As long as I love him, everything is worthwhile. Fate has decide upon us. Let fate make the decision. Many people says fate is in our own hands. Well, I believe this. But I rather let fate decide and let's be happy. Rather forcing it and causing unhappiness.

As long as I know that.. He still loves me. He still care, I'm happy enough.

I just want to be happy. It's simple isn't it?? But life is always full of obstacles that made us feel upset. Bother over it. As long as you look at it positively, it is as simple as 'It's nothing'.

happy, sad, guilty?

Guilty-stricken!
It's 27minutes more to 13 month. <3
Meet up with Son and Melody today, had some chit-chats session. Kinda good to catch up after a looooooong time.




Tomorrow is maths UT, totally not ready. I gave up studying man, it sucks. Probability sucks to the max! UTs 2 are getting so much difficult despite open book test. Cognitive is still the best! Imma problem solving person ehhh (: Hahaha! Programming coming next and it sucks, seriously.


Alright, enough of my own grumblings..
Spain won Germany by 1-0. Predicted but did not place any bet, baby don't let.
Love my daddy, bought an iphone for me, till now i've got problem using it. Imma noob!
I'm bored so bored now, waiting time to strike 12. Wanna study?! No! Nothing goes in my head.. suck. I tried, failed.


Wanna meet up with many many people..
Cheryl
Cindy, Grace, Wanning
Melody, Chelsa, Tinghui, Valerie, Sera
2e4 peeps
Haiwen, Aifaa, Germaine, Liyana
Miss them man!

I hope to save many many moneyyyyyy, enjoy to the max for aug holidays, baby going in army. Sometimes i thought of it, i feel so sad, cannot bear to..

Alright, enough of this, gonna do some photos searching. Know what?! I wanna do an angkong of fortune cat holding on to a mahjong tiles 'fa' and wearing slippers holding on to an olden fan on the other hand. Creative, it will looked rather funny though.

5 & 6 more days

Everything is going smoothly now, I love it! Hopefully things are going better down the road. Yeah! My dad bought me an iphone, happy excited elated (: Finally got rid of that old phone with my new phone. Bcoz I'm getting sick of my old phone even though it's still in the right condition NOT.

Putting my blog private, only applicable to be seen by the authur which is ME. Don't know why, don't feel like opening my blog in public.

Counting down to 5 & 6 more days. (Y)

I'm weak at decision making!

Everyone's has to make a decision in their life. Why is it always so hard to make a decision? Why is there always hesitations and feelings that hold you from from it? I'm not strong. I'm a person that tends to give in easily, got hold back easily. I'm not strong and determine enough to make decisions.

I'm sad bcoz..
who am I to you?
why are you treating me this way?
giving me that attitude?
talking to me like this?

I'm selfish, ok I'm selfish. I thought for myself only.
I know you treating me good. But that's not what I want, you know what I want..
Nothing is perfect. So are you and me.
A simple thing like what a boyfriend does for their girlfriend is good enough. I'm happy enough.
From the things you did/ the actions you do, it proves something. I'm not someone to you.

Believe it or not？

爱一个人是哪么的痛苦。
为舍么重是付出了，还是没有结果？

Hate

Hate myself for not giving myself a chance..
Hate myself for being so weak..
Hate myself for not being strong and courages..

Fucking hate it when someone treats me like shit.
Have they thought of what is the feeling of being treated like that.
Is it that everything has no solution to it and only this way can solve things easier?
Or is it that you like to see people in misery to satisfy your needs?
Or is it that you want to suffer less to let people suffer more?
WHY ARE YOU SO SELFISH?
Everything has a solution to it, avoiding it does not help! Godamnit.