I'm sad, bloody sad.
After this post, I swear there is no more sad posting in more blog every again. No more emo shit ass things!
I'm just so stupid. Everyone around me ask me to stop contacting him, stop answering his call, forget about him and move on. I chose not to listen, i contact him, dig my own grave for me to jump in.
I'm just so stupid. I can't believe i'm crying right now. NOT FOR HIM ANYMORE, IT'S JUST THE MEMORIES WE ONCE HAD.
I deleted everything, why? Because I hope by doing so, It will help me in erasing those memories. But no, brain is holder of everything. At least, nothing to reminds me of him, memories would fade off eventually, I hope.
Jeniffer, you got to move on!
I had great times with my friends this few weeks. Great time working, making new friends and hanging out with friends. But no matter how busy I am, he in still in my mind. WHYWHY? I have once thought I do not love him anymore, the reason why I'm unable to let go is due to all the memories. When I'm pissed, I think of bad memories and yes, negative thoughts, I want to break and end it off so much. When I'm happy, I thought of good memories and so much of "can't bear to let go" makes me continue till this stage. But, why do I have the thoughts that I'm still loving him.
I need a break, to get away from all this things. I wanna go overseas, to enjoy myself to freed myself, to leave all the bad memories there.
